This week I have been reflecting on my parenting journey so far. I adore my three little ones and I can't imagine life without them but it is no secret that I find being a parent tough and I have, at times, lost myself along the way. It is always the children that lift me when I am at my lowest. Here is my latest poem inspired by Mum Turned Mom's weekly writing prompt "Mirror".
Mirror
Looking in the mirror,
I twist a loose strand of hair.
That creeping thought is back again,
A chill spreading through the air.
It expands like a spiders web,
Entangling my mind.
My thoughts darken quickly,
The sun becomes hard to find.
Growing ever blacker,
Like a fog inside my head.
It rushes through my body,
A sickening feeling, dread.
I’m hopeless. I’m a failure.
They deserve so much more.
I’m useless. I’m not good enough.
An echo of internal war.
It’s a solitary battle,
An all consuming storm,
There is no escape plan,
The black clouds swarm.
My mind wades through the waters,
As I consider what I’ve become.
Feeling desperately alone,
Until a little voice shouts “Mum!”
Then the clouds start to lift,
And the light peaks through,
The air is calm and warm again,
And it’s all because of you.
K.E - October 2016
On Monday it was our first Parents' Evening since Izzie started school. We didn't really know what to expect as first timers but it was actually really lovely to hear how well Izzie is settling in and how much she enjoys learning. She loves to practice her writing both at school and at home. It does seem very hard work for her because she is left handed (as is her teacher) so I am really trying to encourage her as much as I can with her letter formation. It helps that she is so enthusiastic.
She also loves rhymes and poetry. This week she came up with a little poem, which really made me smile so I thought I'd share it.
Fluffy Penguin
fluffy penguin
white and black
waddles around
on the ice
slippy penguin
carries its egg
tap tap
and out pokes a leg
Baby penguin
loves to shout
to his mummy
chirp
I.E - October 2016
I hope everyone else has had a good week.